when you’re just tired of everything? And for once you just want it to be easy? You just want everything to work out and let it go the way you want it. That way you won’t have to fake a fake smile everyday and be unhappy. You just want those easy lifestyle where you’re happy and everything is perfect, or close to be perfect. You just want to empty your thoughts and feelings out to the world but it’s still trapped inside you. You’re just living a painful and hard life but no one’s realizing the pain you go through, everyday. You just want it be to easy, for once. You just want to be happy and smile and let the world know you’re okay.
All those time when you asked, “Are you okay?”, I always answered “I’m fine.” As much as I want to tell you, I can’t. Those thoughts, feelings, emotions are bottled up and it won’t open. I just don’t want you to worry and let you live on with your life. I want you to be happy without the pain you have to deal with, when you’re with me. I’m just afraid that if I let it out, you’ll take advantage of it, and hurt me.
I hate you but then I love you. I want to give up on you, but then you make me go crawling back to you every time I try to run away from you. It’s like you’re whispering in my head to come back to you every time I leave. I hate how you make me crave for more of you every time we meet. When my lips touch you, I feel that connection that pulls us together. I really do love you, food.